I am a 19 year old Sikh guy ;
The problem is that I am not like a Sikh ; Its not that I am a ' mona ' ; I keep unshorn hair & the unshorn beard , But , I am not that smart , not that active ;
From what I have observed Sikhs have a very UNIQUENESS in their personality ;
I am not having that ; I WANT THAT !!!! :}
:} 
What do I do !! ; I feel like so Sikh_less ; Ya , all the Sikh guys around me are so unique ;
I dont have that courage ;
& one more thing ; PLEASEEEE dont delete my account for this . . . . .
I am GAY ; Its not in my hands , really ; I felt guys cute since I started remembering things ; So , this gayness also makes me feel so unmanly ; & when I have a turban on head ; I declare that I am part of a faith ; & no ordinary faith , Sikhism where people are expected to be as strong as steel no matter what ;
S O , __ H O W ___ D O __ I __ B E C O M E ___ M O R E ____ L I K E ___ A __ S I K H , ???
H O W __ D O ___ I ____ B E C O M E _____ A ___ "***S A R D A R ***** ____I N ___A ____ T R U E ____ S E N S E ??
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My 5 most important priorities in life :
1) Studies / Career
2) Family
3) Religion
4) Peace of mind
5) Happiness
More...
The problem is that I am not like a Sikh ; Its not that I am a ' mona ' ; I keep unshorn hair & the unshorn beard , But , I am not that smart , not that active ;
From what I have observed Sikhs have a very UNIQUENESS in their personality ;
I am not having that ; I WANT THAT !!!! :}
:} What do I do !! ; I feel like so Sikh_less ; Ya , all the Sikh guys around me are so unique ;
I dont have that courage ;
& one more thing ; PLEASEEEE dont delete my account for this . . . . .
I am GAY ; Its not in my hands , really ; I felt guys cute since I started remembering things ; So , this gayness also makes me feel so unmanly ; & when I have a turban on head ; I declare that I am part of a faith ; & no ordinary faith , Sikhism where people are expected to be as strong as steel no matter what ;
S O , __ H O W ___ D O __ I __ B E C O M E ___ M O R E ____ L I K E ___ A __ S I K H , ???
H O W __ D O ___ I ____ B E C O M E _____ A ___ "***S A R D A R ***** ____I N ___A ____ T R U E ____ S E N S E ??
*********EDIT*************************
My 5 most important priorities in life :
1) Studies / Career
2) Family
3) Religion
4) Peace of mind
5) Happiness
More...